Time for a Change?

How do you know when its time for a change? Does the desire grow slowly over time, or does it come upon you all of a sudden?

I have always tended to be a bit of an idealist. I have a hard time settling. Yet, like most people, over time things seem to become more normal or more comfortable.

My wife and I stumbled upon a home the other day. It has been vacant for over a year, is in a prime location, and could hardly be more perfect for our unusual family situation. However, the amount of work it will take to even be able to see if making a change is possible is overwhelming to me.

There is also the subtle question of influence. Many times in my life I have been able to bring about the change that I hope to see by sheer hard work, tenacity, and influence. But there is often a bitter taste in my mouth wondering whether it was meant to be or if I just "worked it".

Some refer to this as the concept of fate vs. free will.... God's plans vs. my plans... there are many areas where this tension comes to light, but I often see the potential to "work it" when change is an issue.

The questions are many: do I want to work it? should I work it if I could? if it takes a lot to work it, is it worth the effort? will I regret it if I don't try?

Perhaps this is just self-indulgent naval gazing, but I find it important to lay hold of my motives and desires before I commit myself to action.